So, the last time I blogged was in October o_o and I was bitching about some lady lol. Since then, I guess the main things have been getting my first university acceptance, all the many practices on the curling A team, winning gold at the TDCAA and going onto OFSAA. Of course, those are all the ups, but as the saying goes, what goes up must come down. So to balance out all that joy and cheer, I lost my beloved aunt to cancer, we did terribly in OFSAA, and now I'm just trying to finish in order to graduate and get out of high school.
I got accepted to Ryerson University for accounting and I'm so excited, not to mention glad that I got in! Of course, it's the biggest stressor for a grade 12 student. University, pshaww.
The TDCAA tournament was full of drama and absolute pressure. We couldn't afford to lose because 3 out of 5 of our team was graduating and of course we had to go out with a bang! The girls hadn't gone to OFSAA for 3 years and we decided we wanted to go this year and pushed through all the practices with the school and out of school. It was so much fun and I'm glad we pulled through. Of course it was not completely expected, but the surprise was great! I didn't manage to stay until the end of the last game because I had to have my wisdom teeth pulled, but I did get to play the first half of the game and was joyed with a call from my teammates before the surgery that we had won gold! It was very unfortunate that the guys had lost the most important game. It just sucks when both our team and the guys had won all our games up to that point (3 games) and we were at the quarter finals. They had to lose to a team they had just previously beaten and that's the worst way to go. Actually, our team had almost done the same thing, but pulled it together before it was too late. I was ecstatic going into the surgery, but completely exhausted. It was smoothly and I took the rest of the day and all the next day to rest. Of course, being the silly me, 2 days after the surgery, I was up and about as usual. I went to church and then went to curling practice. My teammates were shocked to see me, but I just couldn't afford to slack off as OFSAA was in a week and a half. We spent that whole week having practices and the following week before the big tournament. When the first day of OFSAA came, we were all charged up for our first game. Unfortunately, we lost, but didn't let that get to us as we dressed up for the banquet held that night.
As we were driving to the banquet hall, I got a call from my mom who told me that my aunt had passed away. She had been in the hospital for quite a while as she was treated for cancer. We had thought she was finally getting better, but this happened and we were all in shock. I spent the rest of the night in tears. I'm glad I had the support of my teammates and couches. The next day was terrible as I had gotten very little sleep and had to play a game at 8:30 in the morning. I was exhausted by the time the afternoon game came along and decided to sit out. I ended up getting a much appreciated ride from my friend to my aunt's house as we prepared for her viewing and funeral that weekend. The next morning was our last game and I sat out again from the lack of sleep. Being one of the regular players, I felt like I was letting my team down and felt horrible, but they all supported me nonstop. We lost that game as well and left OFSAA with much experience and, unfortunately, no winning games. Honestly, this may just sound like an excuse, but all the teams were from the northern areas where it was small towns that had nothing better to do than curl or ski or skate. Our city is much more diverse and we were fine with losing to actually good teams who were all regular curlers like our skip. It was like facing 4 skips o_o!
Well anyways, the weekend was brutal with the viewing and funeral. The viewing was the night that I had finished my last curling game. It was unbelievable the amount of tears I shed. I managed to meet so many people and was glad that all these people came to cherish my aunt. She really was such an amazing wife, daughter, aunt, and mom. To my surprise, it was an open coffin viewing. I hadn't seen her since the week prier and was shocked to see how well a job the makeup artists had done. I was glad that she looked so beautiful, just like her usual self. She simply looked as if she was sleeping. After the viewing, our family had gone to dinner and that's when it hit most of us that this was final. The next morning was early as we headed back to the funeral home for the ceremony. It was long, emotional, and extremely saddening. I can't begin to count the many tissues I used. After the ceremony, we drove off to the cemetery where she would be buried. It hurt to say our final goodbyes as they close the casket and we never saw her again. After the burial, everyone was invited to a buffet lunch where we could all talk and comfort one another as we all attempted to move on.
The next day at school, I got much support as my aunt was mentioned in the morning prayers. I was showered with constant sympathy and sought help from our chaplaincy and guidance councilor. It definitely helped as she told me many ways to help move on. Throughout that morning, I had spent going around to my teachers to let them know of my lack of work and left school in the afternoon to go to my elementary school. I was accepted and treated with utmost care. I say it so many times, but I really appreciate all the support I got. It's the only reason I can be like I am now.
A week later, my aunt's oldest daughter had her first child and I was granted with a niece. She is absolutely adorable and has won over the hearts of everyone she's seen. She'll be spoiled to the utmost degree, but it is unfortunate that she'll never meet her grandma. But it's okay because when she grows older, she'll hear many tales of her wonderful grandma who would've loved her so very much with pictures to go along with them.
So, here I am now, two weeks from the last day of school and 4 weeks from graduation! I'm anxious, excited, scared, but so very ready! Hopefully, I post another blog soon or I'll have another one of these super long blogs in a few months. Well thanks for reading or attempting to read about the past 7 months!
Emotion: HOT (as the temperature is like the high 20's!)
Current Music: Say Goodbye by Good and Broken

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